Facebook Fast

I've deactivated my Facebook account. I may be back, I may not. Here is why:

I have had an incredibly shitty week, which caps off a pretty crappy 5 years. I am tired. Tired of being in charge of everything on all fronts. Tired of putting on a happy face for people who could not possibly care less. Tired of being the Funny Fat Girl.

After what was quite possibly a nervous breakdown of some sort today, I came to the realization that there was no one but my mother I could call. At 37, my mom is my best friend. I have about 4 girlfriends can really count on and I am thankful beyond words for them, but I can't say I have a best friend.

Those 4 people and I talk on a regular basis. As for the rest of the 136 Facebook "friends", most of them are purely surface. There are a few - former teachers I am close to, former co-workers, distant family, too - that I will keep up with via e-mail. All the rest of them couldn't care less.

So I deactivated the account. If you want to know how I am doing or what's going on with me, you'll have to do it the old fashioned way - via e-mail.